Thursday, February 26, 2009

Do you know you're worthy?

Here is part of a fantastic conversation I had tonight with a friend of mine. Names have been changed just in case. It might give you some food for thought....

9:49:22 PM L: Thanks. How are you?
9:49:45 PM ME: i'm freaking fantastic :)
10:04:19 PM L: Yep, but why do you say that?
10:04:37 PM ME: if you read my lastest note on fb you'll understand why
10:05:41 PM L: Lol care to explain though?
10:05:57 PM ME: i'm just totally in love with God right now
10:06:41 PM L: Great! What happened?
10:07:16 PM ME: i finished reading that book and it just really spoke to me and opened up my heart in so many ways
10:08:02 PM L: In what way?
10:09:39 PM ME: just how much God loves me and how there aren't any expectations or conditions in our relationship, so even though i'll screw up, She already did her part to pave the road to Her. Everything just seems so much more illuminated now
10:12:42 PM L: Hmm. . Are you online?
10:13:14 PM ME: yep
10:14:56 PM L: Well. God is love.
10:36:46 PM L: It's all about 1 John 4:7 and 8
10:38:22 PM ME: that's certainly it in beautifully simplified words
10:39:04 PM L: Do you know what is says?
10:39:15 PM ME: yep
10:40:04 PM L: and. . We can't fully love others if we don't love God. . Whatever we show him will pour out through our heart onto others. . The two greatest commandments is to Love God with all your heart, soul and mind and to love your neighbor as yourself.
10:40:46 PM L: Which we often feel that it's about loving others. . But, it's not.
10:41:28 PM ME: you can't fully love your neighbor if you don't fully love yourself. and how can you love god to your full extent if you don't love yourself, one whom She created in Her image?
10:42:23 PM L: You can try to portray and pour out what you feel love is. . By exhibiting those emotions to God . .
10:44:02 PM ME: try is the key word there. but if you don't love who you are enough to deem yourself worthy of a beautiful, intimate relationship with god, then you'll consistently keep him at a distance... and you won't be able to experience all the love She has to give
10:44:49 PM L: I think God meets us where we are at. . .
10:48:31 PM ME: well yeah, god is always with us wherever we are. but we have to do our part too. god's worth it. that's why it's so important to work through the things that keep us from loving ourselves. we are beautiful creations in her eyes and when we are blind to the fullness of that truth, we can't see the path laid down in front of us to travel closer to Her
10:50:42 PM L: By having low self worth it's almost a slap in the face to God, because ourselves were made in his image
10:51:06 PM ME: yep. that's exactly it.
10:51:38 PM ME: you're judging His creation by your socialized standards of merit and worth... which are tragically skewed.
10:52:44 PM L: Sometimes though, our problem with your worth has been implanted into us as a child. . and in adult hood It's not a judgment. . It depends on the person.
10:54:56 PM ME: i can understand where you're coming from, definitely. but as an adult, you're much more aware of the fact that it was a lie that was implanted. And yet we continue to judge ourselves by that criteria. True freedom comes in part by breaking ourselves of that.
10:55:50 PM L: I don't know. . I think sometimes it has been implanted so much, you can't see the lie. . You can see every reason why it's true.
10:56:29 PM ME: can you see the lies, L?